The sea on you
The gap between the horizon and the sea at night is one of the saddest gulfs God made, with parallel lines and strangers who were meant to meet and fall in love but could not
that is where you found yourself at 14 years old, soaked to the shaking bone, your shoulders shocked from the weight…
"I was always sweet, at first. Oh, it’s so easy to be sweet to people before you love them."-Dorothy Parker, Collected Stories (via larmoyante)
"I admire people who have the ability to touch you and still be thousands of miles from your presence."-William Chapman (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)
"You will hear thunder and remember me,
-Anna Akhmatova (via 5000letters)
and think: she wanted storms."
Honestly some of my favourite lyrics
"I wonder how words like ‘love’ and ‘stay’ can even fit
-Azra. T “a dictionary’s worth of silence” (via 5000letters)
in the body
let alone the mouth."
"I was always looking for myself in the wrong places
-Azra.T “reflections” (via 5000letters)
in the hands of men who knew how to curve my body like melted glass but did not know how to gather when I turned to rainwater in their hands
whiskey bottles, even the ends of cigarette butts or their ashes
I looked everywhere except in the places I needed to
the ocean, the open road, in myself."
"Despite what you’ve read, your sadness is not beautiful. No one will see you in the bookstore, curled up with your Bukowski, and want to save you.
-starredsoul (via memereve)
for a salvation that will not come from the grey-eyed boy looking for an annotated copy of Shakespeare,
for an end to your sadness in Keats.
He coughed up his lungs at 25, and flowery words cannot conceal a life barely lived.
Your life is fragile, just beginning, teetering on the violent edge of the world.
Your sadness will bury you alive, and you are the only one who can shovel your way out with hardened hands and ragged fingernails, bleeding your despair into the unforgiving earth.
Darling, you see, no heroes are coming for you. Grab your sword, and don your own armor."
"When you are 19 you will be given news that you did not wish to hold
-Azra.T “if this is what betrayal looks like I never want to see another face again” (via 5000letters)
your own hands will shake against the onslaught
and when you wake up you’ll find that the family you used to know are gone, instead there are strangers wearing masks of their faces
you are bleeding in places you didn’t know you owned
your lover has left the bed empty
every forest fire is sparked by the match of your temper
darling girl, you’ll wish that the ocean had a mouth you could pry open and crawl into and every time you speak
all your words will sound like ‘why?’"
"1. Kiss boys whose mouths taste like plums and liquorice take, but do not give do not surrender to the urge to fall 2. Kiss girls who are silk beneath your hands swell around them until you become water logged, heaving 3. Leave forest fires alone do not look for smoke, when your body starts to burn stay away from trees, get the hose 4. You are not an apology do not treat yourself like one your lips are perfect for kissing your hips do not spell ‘sorry’ 5. The roar of your voice is a lightning storm This is why the sky excites you Because you were born from it 6. They’ll tell you that you are ruined Don’t listen, you are not an abandoned train station you are poetry in motion 7. There will be leaves in your hair from climbing trees and falling from them, Sometimes it is good to hurtle 8. Loosen yourself into elastic the next time someone touches you remember: you are not an apology you belong solely to yourself."-Azra.T “lessons” (via weaverofstars)